Crazy. The best word I can come up with to describe this week. It has had its ups and it has had its downs. Mostly downs. But one big up. We got our new youth pastor, Garrett, on Wednesday. He is wonderful. His whole family is wonderful. I absolutely adore his kids. Tristan, his oldest, is the cutest thing ever.
Me: Tristan, what is your favorite animal?
Tristan: Well um I would probably have to pick a giraffe.
Awesome. Thanks dude. He really is great though. Garrett seems to have a lot of vision for what he wants to do with Vertical and I like it. His message is relevant, maybe a little too relevant, but it is good because that is something we have been lacking for a long time. I saw some notes in his office today. It said work on fellowship. I agree. Things are looking up at Vertical. Today I was told "You rock. You are really awesome." by my youth pastor and I actually believed he meant it for the first time in 3 years. It actually felt genuine.
Now, for the not so good. I guess it isn't really that bad. I am stupid. I make stupid decisions. I don't think before I act. And when I think after I act, in this case, it does not help. So that kind of screwed up some of the week. I am unable to go into detail about that. Nobody will ever know, with the exception of Kelli because she is the only person I really trust 100% right now.
And Spiderman (that is a code name figure it out) is being dumb. I told him my feelings and he shot it down. He basically just told me that everything I said didn't matter. He is refusing to change a thing. What did I learn from this? The walls that Matt is always talking about are good. Keep them up, they keep me safe. And Spiderman is not turning out to be who I thought he was. I am sick of fighting with him though. Really just sick of crying. Crying is dumb. Ugh!
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