everything is right with the world again.. well.. almost

Let's just start with today, shall we? I got my AC cord for my macbook. My new one. Because the old one snapped. Sucky! It might seem sad, and I feel pathetic saying it, but I don't feel complete without my computer. A lot of it is my lack of music. ALL of my music is on this thing. I need my music to survive in this world. So today I went to best buy with my mother. We walked to the back of the store where all of the wonderful mac products can be found. We stood there looking at the AC cords for a very long time. There were two sitting right next to each other. They looked identical. Only, one said 60 watts and the other said 85 watts. I read both of them and they were both compatible with the computer that I have. Knowing that I had a 60 watt before I suggested that we should probably just get the 60 watt but getting the 85 watt probably wouldn't hurt anything. Then I turned around to see Nathan. What! I haven't seen him in forever. So after our hello's and such he asked if we needed help with anything. My mom asked her question and he told her what I told her. The difference was he was backed up with knowledge I was just making assumptions. So we bought it and left. Then we went to the hair shop. I got all my hairs chopped by a lady who smelled like oatmeal. Then I went over and sat by my mom while her lady finished hers. Jamie. She was nice. After a little bit of talking I found out that Jamie has been going to Life Church for a few months and she goes to Canvas. Jamie likes Jared. I like Jamie. Small world. So I came home and got on this wonderful computer. Now I'm here. My heart hurts. Every single day I text my best friend almost all day. Some days its great. Some days it feels like there was no good conversation. Just a lot of little small talks with a few good conversations in between. If I'm lucky. Lately it's been a bunch of that. Small talk. Not that I expect deep life changing conversation over a text every day of my life. If it happened every day it wouldn't be deep and life changing. It would just be everyday life. But the yeah's and lol's are increasing so much lately. I'm scared I'm gonna lose my best friend again. Once was enough. Once was more than enough, it was too much. And things just don't seem right lately. They were so good for so long and then something happened. Maybe I'm asking too much. Expecting too much. I always believed forever doesn't really mean forever. Maybe I was right. Who knows. All I know is I don't wanna lose my best friend again. I want things to be great again. But I don't know how to make it that way.